I relate to you so much! I was a young mother as well - four kids by the time I was 24. I have always struggled with depression, though recently my diagnosis was updated to BPD, which explains why the meds I tried never quite scratched the itch the way they do for some people. Now begins the real work of dissecting the experiences that cause me to react to the world the way I do, since medications don't help for BPD.

It's very helpful to read about others experiences, so thank you for sharing. Maybe one day I'll be brave enough to share my own!