I'm so very sorry that you endured that. The way sex is handled inside of marriages is absolutely ridiculous. The running joke about women withholding it, is very telling about how much marital rape is happening.

I hope you find justice for the abuses done to you (though I have VERY little faith in our legal system). But if nothing else, I hope you find peace. You did nothing to deserve that treatment and you deserve to live in a life where YOU make the decisions about your life that are then respected by those around you.

Sending you healing energy!